The body is not the subject
It is the instrument
Everything begins here
Built
Tested
Refined
Being confronted with death changes the way you think
At 21, I was diagnosed with kidney disease
There was no warning
No gradual shift
Everything became immediate
The future was no longer abstract
It was measurable
I refused trajectory
No dependency
No deterioration
I chose control
There was nothing that would get in my way
Not fear
Not discomfort
Not limitation
Art had always guided me
Now I let it take over completely
I stopped treating my body as something I lived in
I began treating it as something I built
Discipline replaced uncertainty
Structure replaced instinct
Everything became intentional
THE SYSTEM
Not aesthetic
Functional
Not expressive
Controlled
Not random
Engineered
Repetition became ritual
Over time
The system became the work
I became a machine
An art machine
CONDITIONING
Strength was only the surface
What mattered was endurance
Control
Precision
Balance
Recovery
The body had to become adaptable
Not for sport
For creation
RELEASE
The conditioning was never the destination
It was preparation
The body became responsive
Precise
Available
Every movement began carrying intention
Performance emerged naturally
Not as Entertainment
As transmission
THE PRACTICE
Repetition became meditation
The studio became ritual space
Paint replaced language
Instinct replaced hesitation
The work was no longer separate from life
